Take 6 - LIFE!

Do you ever feel like you're drowning in life? I don't feel like there are enough hours in the day to accomplish all I need to accomplish. I don't feel like I have time to get all the dishes done, the laundry washed, dinner made, etc., etc., etc., and still have sufficient time for my children....or even myself for that matter. I get so overwhelmed. I find myself giving up on everything because the pile of things to do is so high that I don't even know where to begin. I want to make a better household for my family and I feel like I'm a salmon trying to fight the current. Sometimes (maybe most of the time), though, I barely have the strength to jump out of the water to gain that extra foot or so. Where to begin?!?! I've started attending (twice, so far) a mom's group and I find it to be very encouraging, but I also find that it depresses me to an extent. However, let me make a quick note here that I struggle with depression (and have for many years) and when I am at my highest is when I drop so drastically and mind-blowingly to my lowest. I say that because I don't want anyone in the group to feel that it is their fault that it somewhat depresses me. Now, as I was saying, it somewhat depresses me but only mostly because I see a place that I want to be and I don't know which path is the right path to lead me to that place. I want a stronger family bond in my house, but I don't know how to get my husband on board. I want things to be calmer and happier. I want to feel good in my house. Don't get me wrong, there is no place like home and for the most part I like to be there, but there is just something missing. I need to work at this point in our lives, but I have a very strong desire to be home. I don't necessarily need to be home every day, but more than I am now. I need to feel like I have some kind of control over my life. Right now I get up early, I ready both children, leave the house, drop one at school, drop one at babysitter, go to work for 6 hours, pick up children, go home, make dinner, try to wash at least one load of laundry/dishes, try to relax, try to sleep, start all over. I know this is pretty much the normal life of a mom, but where in there do I get to make headway? I am so busy just trying to keep marking things off my list that I have no time whatsoever for anything new that gets added to the end of the list. I feel like I'm sinking - not a good feeling. Maybe I just can't see the forest for all the trees, but I can't see the forest for all the trees. Sigh!